Where does it come from.......this amazing inner strength? She has it in abundance. Oh, She is not perfect.......not by a long shot. But when it comes right to the nitty gritty.....it is there.
Last night after cooking a lovely dinner, we talked about what was going on with Elinor and her work. My sister is having a few crisises and she needed to vent. Maureen was acting as the middle woman so to speak because she is also friends with Elinor's partner. It seems everything comes thru Mo. It was a good talk and a helpful one for Elinor but it was a sad one for me.
I am a selfish person sometimes and I wanted to be the helpful one but I am not. So I listened and this morning, I cried quietly because I feel
useless at this time. I know I have my gifts but when it comes right down to it, they are not of use at this time. So I am feeling sorry for myself and I am wondering why I am here if not to help. What I don't want to be is a burden to anyone. I must try and put my fears aside and do what I can. This is not my time to serve Elinor..........maybe I can be there for MO.