Saturday, July 24, 2010

Trust! Now!

Anyone who has ever done a 12 step program knows that there is one step where you have to list your faults. Admitting your faults to yourself is really hard. After you do that, then you have to admit them to God. OHHHHHH Boy! I am having a really difficult time with that. What is so funny is that God already knows what I have done so what is the big deal? It is not like I can hide anything from Him but I keeps trying. I have been doing this for most of my life and it hasn't done any good whatsoever. All it does is hurt me. For the past two weeks, God has been sending me messages thru meditations that it is safe to tell Him but I am afraid. Why can't I trust Him. HE ALREADY KNOWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stubborn. I just can't let it go but I will. I am determined. I have to...............

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

What Is It About Taste ?

When I was a kid, the only vegetable I would eat was green peas. Now I can't touch them except in salads or casseroles. I hated onions when I was little and now I love
them. I use to love to read. Now I don't open a book except to read my scripture each morning. I use to watch all sorts of movies. Now if there is a lot of violence or sex or swearing, I am not interested. Ads about drugs and such never bothered me before. Now they offend. Shows I use to find funny aren't any more. I had a favorite movie called "Author, Author" starring Al Pacino. It is about this playwright who has 5 kids living with him. Only one kid is his. The others belong to his wife who has been married 4 times. She can't commit. I wanted to show this to Elinor but there was so much swearing that I turned it off. I felt really bad because I know it offended her but it offended me too.
Of course, I think my sense of humor has died anyway because it sure has been a long time since I have laughed at any movie. Do I need to amputate my funny bone? Obviously, I have changed as a person and perhaps I have become more sensitive to other people. I don't know. Thank goodness my brother can still make me laugh. I don't know what I would do without him. He can almost always get me chuckling. God Bless my Bro and I guess He has blessed me too.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Where Do I Go From Here?

I am feeling old today. 61 isn't all that old but it sure feels it. It is not that I would like to be a kid again because I wouldn't like that at all. I see all the things that kids go thru now and I don't think I would make it. I see all the ads for colleges and jobs where people are real excited about what is in their future and I wonder why I never felt that way. I don't remember be excited about doing anything. The future scared the crap out of me.
I remember my shrink asking me to picture myself in 5 years and I never could.
So what am I looking for? Where do I go from here? I haven't a clue. I keep asking but I am not hearing an answer. Guess I better clean out my ears again.

Friday, July 9, 2010

A Triple Birthday

Today is a day celebrating 3 birthdays: Cindy Foster, Wendy Lane Bailey and Sam Fox. Since I only have a picture of Sam, I will talk about him.
This is a great little boy. He is 6 years old today. He loves to swim, and play Star Wars, and paint. He has a terrific smile and beautiful eyes. Sam is a joy. He has had some hard times but he is still a sweetheart.
I wish a happy birthday to my two nieces as well. Cindy is overseas in a place I can't spell. She is a wonderful person and I love and admire her. She has had to show a lot of courage lately but she has done that and more. Way to go, Cindy.
Wendy is a go getter. She has become an extraordinary cabaret
performer and is trying to cut her first album. I support her 100%. I can't wait to hear the album. If you are interested go to It is definately a winner.
Happy Birthday, Gang. Best to you all!!!!!!!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Izzi's in Love

More than in love.......she is engaged. We met the guy last night and he is a sweetheart. His name is Johnny and he adores Izzi which is only right. They make a wonderful couple. The date is set for December 28th and they will be married in the Portland Temple. Johnny is a returning missionary who will be attending BYU where Izzi goes. They both want to complete their education so that is good. More info to follow. Needless to say, the Coleman Clan is delighted and Johnny has Papa Joe's appproval. He has our appoval as well. Way to go, Izz.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Summer Visits

When I was growing up, we would always travel out to Illinois to visit my Mom's side of the family. We would usually stay at 808 Sunset Ave in Winnetka with my Grandfather Totman and Aunt Eloise(known as Auntie) It was a fine old house with lots of noocks and crannies for kids to play in. Often, my cousin, Margaret would be there too. We slept out on the screened in porch and Gran would tell us stories of Elephant Titus and Elephant Mitus and Skeezix and about Maine where he grew up. I loved those stories. I wish someone had written them down.
We would also visit my Great Aunt Evie over in Three Rivers, Michigan. She had a farm and a wonderful old house. There were raspberries and blueberries and fresh corn. Then there was Aunt Barbie and Uncle Way(known as Thompy) They had a beautiful house on the edge of a golf course. Aunt Barbie had lots of beautiful flowers in her garden and her home was immaculate. They are all gone now but what memories they bring up.
Right now, I have some great nephews and a great niece visiting us from St Louis. I wonder how they will remember me when they are grow up. I hope I am giving them good memories to look back on. The nephews are a little young but maybe Lily will remember. I hope so.
By the by, the picture of the one lady is my Great Aunt Evie. The one with the man and woman is my Grandfather Totman and my Mom. The one with the three ladies is my Aunt Pat, Auntie, and Aunt Barbie. I miss them all.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Happy Birthday, USA

Right now, I am listening to fireworks exploding in the air all around Vancouver. I love it! It is the 4th of July and our country is celebrating. We should be. For as many things that are wrong with our country, there is so much that is right. I would not want to live anywhere else. I like that we try to do what is right. We may not always be right but at least we try. If we are so rotten, how come so many people are trying to sneak into our country illegally?
Tonight, we celebrated with a really nice meal, good friends and lovely family. My niece, Laura ,is here with her three children: Lily, Luke, and Grant. There was Maureen with two of her boys: Thomas and Sam. John is out of town. There were some neighbors from across the street and their two kids. One of Thomas's friends was there and then we had the missionaries.
It was fun and it was the way we are suppose to celebrate. I started of the day by going to church. All in all, I had a great day.
The only one who isn't enjoying this is Cashew. She does not like fireworks. Oh well, you can't have everything.
I am proud to be an American and I thank my Heavenly Father for my country. I thank the men and women who are serving both here and overseas. They keep our country safe and I pray for their safe return home.
Happy birthday, America and thanks.